My step towards freedom

I took the biggest step in my life when I walked through that door. I thought in the past that I had given big steps, after all, I got a university degree, I got married, I did an executive MBA while I was getting a huge promotion at work, I got divorced, I moved out of my home country becoming an expat… and those only to mention some of the steps in my life - so far ☺.

But none of those were the biggest steps of my life. They were very important though, all of them together created the path which led me where I am today, allowing me to give THAT step I like to call “my step towards freedom”.

Don’t get me wrong: my job was ok and the company I was working at was ok too. It was just not feeling ok to my being, that was all.

Once someone told me: “we make big decisions in life at a very early stage, when we know very little about it”. In my case, I need to modify that phrase slightly to “I made big decisions in my life knowing very little about myself”. Some of them were at an early stage, some others, at a not so early one.

It took me several years and a lot of inner work to understand the reasons behind many of those decisions and to differentiate those which were my real choice from those which were, somehow, inherited. Many of them, more than what I could have guessed, were aligned with the expectations I thought people had on me.

My gut speaks to me, it always did. But, for a long time, I simply ignored it. I could not give a rational explanation to what it was suggesting, so not listening to it and going ahead with the “logical thing to do” was the easiest. Problem was, that logic was not mine. It could be a friend’s, a family member’s, a boss’, a professor’s, whoever, but not mine.

At some moment it hit me: I had built a “logical life” with plenty of milestones achieved but none of them were making me feel happy or fulfilled. I kept asking myself “What is wrong with me? Am I an eternal nonconformist? It doesn’t matter what I achieve, I keep feeling is not enough”

I got tired of setting higher and higher goals and not feeling fulfilled by my achievements. The feeling something was wrong with me was exhausting but what was draining my energy was pushing that feeling away. It was not easy to show myself vulnerable and ask for help. But I did it and a new world of possibilities opened. As the curious person I am, I explored everything that could lead me to know myself better. I started practising Reiki, yoga, meditation, mindfulness and coaching. All those practices helped me to slow down and to connect with my Self. Once I achieved that, all that came after simply flowed, effortlessly. I started making decisions aligned to my being.

Creating a life aligned to my purpose and my values is what I call freedom. That step, the one me leaving the corporate world to fully focus on making a lasting difference in people’s lives through coaching is the one that took me towards freedom.

As an Awareness Coach, I help people on their empowerment towards creating the life they want. If you resonate with “walking your step towards freedom”, let’s have a conversation about how that looks for you.